There are many special days to a person's life, but the day which is universally most special to one is their birthday.

It's completely your day, there are minimum suppression upon you, and you can just act chill enjoy with your family and friends and do party. You finally get a break off everyone telling you what to do, and you get to decide how you day goes. It feels good to be the main character for a day, eat your favorite food, get some gifts, and just relax without any stress or worries hanging over your head.


But not everyone has that day as a good day because there are many types of people in the world. There are some people who absolutely love this occasion and look forward to it all year, and there are some who hate it from their absolute guts.
Some people feel really lonely or stressed out when their birthday comes around, or they just hate all the forced attention. Instead of wanting a massive celebration, a lot of people just look forward to treating it like a normal, peaceful day where they can just sleep.
Even the desired gifts change so much as you grow up. Back in the day you only wanted new toys, video games, or cool toys to aura farm on your friends, but now that you are older you're just happy if someone gives you plain cash, helps pay a bill or buy you something practical like clothes or socks.

The overall music and vibe you want around you completely changes over time too, but it really depends on what kind of person you are. There are some people who have always loved, still love and will always love those flashy things, loud parties and big crowds on their day, and there is absolutely nothing wrong with that. But then there are times where you just want the exact opposite.

Back then a birthday did not feel real to a lot of us unless there was a lot of noise, flashing lights and a room full of people creating chaos, but sometimes the ultimate luxury becomes just putting on some calm, relaxing beats, setting the room lighting to exactly how you like it and enjoying the peaceful atmosphere without any pressure to entertain anybody else.

You go from wanting loud, hype party tracks to blast with a massive crowd, to just wanting a lo-fi, completely chill playlist running in the background while you drink a coffee or a cold drink in total silence

After a certain age, whenever my parents tried to celebrate my birthday I started feeling really bad. It makes me look at the bigger picture, and I start to feel bad for those less fortunate kids who do not even know what a birthday actually is. I always end up thinking about the children who have never been able to taste a single slice of cake or experience the joy of blowing out a candle on their special day. It really hurts to think about the those poor children who spend their entire day working hard just to earn a little money or a single meal even if its their birthday.
While we sit around worrying about growing older or getting the perfect gifts, there are millions of children out there who are just fighting to survive another day, completely unaware of the privileges you and I take for granted.


Thinking about birthdays also makes you realize how quick time flies which brings back so many childhood memories. I have been watching anime since I was a little 5yold kid, starting with shows like Doraemon, Shin chan and Dragon Ball Z on TV. Back then you used to run home after school or wait for the weekend just to catch your favorite episodes, and that pure excitement is so hard to find nowadays.
When you were small you used to think being older would be so cool because you would have all the freedom in the world. Now, every time a birthday comes it's a weird mix of being happy that it is your day, but also feeling a bit sad and missing those simple times when your biggest worry was missing an anime marathon.

Growing up like this makes you truly realize the importance of time and the weight of every single action you took along the way. Looking at where you stand now compared to back then is pretty wild, especially when you fall into the comparison trap of looking at other people your age who seem to have their life completely sorted out while you're still just trying to figure things out day by day. It gives you this eerie, kind of scary feeling about the future because you never really know what is going to happen next or where life will take you. It hits you that you are now getting closer and closer to becoming an ossan, an Obasan, or close to death and that reality check is just crazy to think about.

Anyways Ig I just should enjoy my day and not think abt anything else? I'm an overthinker def an overthinker...


_________________________________________________________________________________________________Thx

Going out to enjoy with frnds now ( forced lol )

Byee